With graduation on the 10th of May, things are coming at a very fast pace! Which means summer is fast approaching. (Thank goodness!)

I have signed up to substitute teach, and here's to hoping I get in!~ :) If so, I'll be able to get some extra money, and actually, I'll be able to take a break in July and August if all goes well.  I'll have to work at my current place of employment (Office Depot) until June or so.  Since year-round school is not in session during most of July and August, it would be a must needed (and deserved!) break for me. 

I also have plans to go to Schlitterbahn with my family, and also to attend an anime convention in Dallas at the end of Mary 31.  It's called A-kon.

What is everyone's plans for the upcoming summer?

I drive by all the restaurants (Chilli's, Johnny Carino's) on Navarro frequently to check the progress of the Tokyo Bar and Grill.  It's starting to look really great, I'm excited!  Does anyone know when it is slated to open? Or whenabouts at least?

I want to go eat there and try the good food! I've had Japanese maybe about 2 times in my life - the latest was on the 22nd of March, and I had Onagi! (Eel - sushi) It was really good! The ginger was cool too, it helps clean your pallette.

Other than thinking of the restaurant, I've been thinking of graduation.  I grabbed paperwork to sign up for substitute teaching! Yay! That's it.

Graduation is eminent, graduation is eminent! I’m so excited, but at the same time, I’m really nervous. I mean, there are going to be so many expectations. My degree is going to be a bachelor’s in English, with a minor in Communication. The plan is to substitute teach to see if I like teaching, and then go from there. Then I’d have to get certified as a teacher and I do not know how long that will take :( 

There are tons of careers out there if it doesn’t work, I just hope I can find them! I also want to move to a bigger city, perhaps Houston, Austin, Dallas, something! What I will probably end up doing is finding a better job after graduation (I work part-time at Office Depot right now), substitute teaching as well, and save up money for when I get my career and move out.  It sounds like a plan to me, anyway. I wonder if I should take it easy this summer. I love summer..,and being lazy, haha!

Does everyone on here that is close to graduation know what they want to do yet? :)

Here are a few poems I wrote.  I was pretty sad when I wrote these, but that's another story altogether.  What do you think?

"Blue Sky Blues"

There is such a thing as a pure
sky, a sky blue as the ocean. 
Yet why does the weather of
fate keep me far away from purity?

On that day, the sky was in turmoil,
and heaven refused to cooperate.
This brought tears to my clear eyes:
I insisted on the unreal Heaven.

A Heaven seen in a faraway place,
a dream, a trance.  What I received
instead was rain, as if the World
cried, cried for us and our blues.


"Blue Sky Blues 2"

Rain pouring down to the tainted land,
the droplets eternal on the heart.
Rain not meant to fall on such a day
somehow causes a new sort of sky.

The pure blue sky is not only above;
it is also inside all of us. 
Blue, unblemished, eternal: a sort-of
longing beating in the red, deep heart.

Stand tall, look above and see the
everchanging heart of the world.
We can not stop the weather of our
Earth, but what of the heart?

Love, like hate and disarray, shows
in the false blue sky.  The blue
sky is a liar, hiding behind a
facade of a brewing hurricane.



"Death"

He appears in dreams, yet his
face changes in each one.
He is everywhere: see him in the
moon, see him outside your window.

The man of mystery has no heart;
it has left his body and is now
Imprinted on each of us.  None
know his true identity and none
Stop to question why he is with
us.  Death, indeed, is in this poem.


"A Heart of Lies"

The heart is an entity within us,
the thump-thump-thump courses
through our veins, but what of
a heart that separates from its
body, its soul, its core being.

A heart of a young boy hidden in
a man, a heart of a gentle princess
trapped in a mere commoner, a heart
of a mastermind jailed in the
unexpecting, naive idiot.


"Enigma Painted Black"
Your windows of deep black
are a mysery, your slight
curvature of mouth an
intrigue. The shutters
 
are drawn, no breeze whispers.
Even when colored into nothingness,
no light shines through to greet
the awakening, timid world.


"The mask"
A mask, a cherade, a lie.
A mask to hide the inner soul.

A man, a man hidden beneath
the shadows of truth.

The man and the mask...
Or is it the mask and the man?

When will all masks be torn away,
when shall fourty-hundred lies become one?

AGH! I have to write this all over again, I lost my post earlier. *sigh* Something I gotta deal with in the world of blogging, I guess.

So, I'm a nerd.  I've found something rather interesting (at least to me!) about the Japanese, rather, overall Asian culture that I would like to share!

It deals with a number.  Simple enough..In our culture, it's somewhat like our fear of the number 13, Friday the 13th, or the lucky number 7.  We have a connection with these numbers.  In Asian culture, their connection is with the number 4. 

It's something called "Tetraphobia".  It's a fear of the number 4.  This simple number is considered extremely unlucky to them.  They often refuse to make notice of this number in their society and city.  For example, many buildings do not even have a fourth floor!

I wouldn't have even learned this, if it wasn't for the Bleach manga by Kubo Tite.  I noticed that the author continually uses fours in reference to things.  I wondered why, and decided to research the number and its meanings online.  I think that he meant to poke fun at this fear of the number four, or just really liked the number.

Either way, I like the number 4, and the number 8 now! Why..well, who knows, I'm just silly like that. ^^;

With Valentine's Day coming up, I've been thinking about love a lot.  Of course, I will be single..I doubt anyone will get me anything but you never know.  Thinking of love got me thinking of memories, and a certain person close to my heart.  I can't stop thinking of him.  When I'm awake, and when I sleep...it never fails, he somehow pops up in my mind.  Is that what love is? I don't know.  I just know it feels good and hurts at the same time...moments of ecstasy and moments of despair.  I feel so different with him, I've had more fun with this person in one day than I ever did with my prior boyfriend.

What do you guys think love is? Is it knowing a person to their core and having that special "soul mate" connection? It is a great friendship, one that blossoms into love?  Is it love at first sight, where you fall for the handsome (or beautiful) person and be totally passionate? Is it something temporary, something that we create in our minds?

Haha I'm so silly.  I just...wish I understood everything, instead of daydreaming about the impossible.

Look at what I made!!! French Toast with powdered sugar and strawberries.  It was sooooo delicous.  I made 6 more slices for my mom and dad. :3

I actually made it on my own.  Mom was peering over my shoulder the last time.  I don't think she trusts my cooking.  She said we'd get food poisoning, hehe.

I don't know what else to post.  I just felt like being dorky and posting this!

This is my first blog! Hello everyone, I'm Sarah Guilbeaux!

Lookit the photo of me.  Yeah, that's me. 

More later!